i am a little disappointed in myself.
it's a little bit silly, i guess.
but last night i was totally passing out by about 730pm.

goodness, i'm not 80 years old!

i got up yesterday and went running.
it wasn't a long run, only about 12 minutes.
and i was so very happy my Jae got up and ran with me!

it was the first time i got up before work and went running.
really - first time ever.
i was glad i did it, although it wasn't the most pleasant of experiences.
i'm not a runner and i'm not a morning person.
so there ya go.

but most of the day yesterday, i was tired and bummed.
bummed that i didn't feel good energy from getting up and running!
i realize it'll probably take a few times to get my body used to it and then i'll feel that energy that everyone talks about when they get up early and work out in the mornings.

so anyway, back to me being lame and falling asleep so early last night.
i tried not to, but i couldn't keep my eyes open.
Jae and i hardly have time to just hang out these days, so i was mad that i couldn't stay awake to hang out with him. i was also mad cuz i still had my contacts in and i knew i had to wake up enough to at least take those out.

i was also bummed cuz i've been really trying to be better at reading scriptures at night. this is something i've never been good at, but i want to be. and i've sucked pretty bad at it.

anyway this is all a bunch of randomness that doesn't really make any sense, but i'm just a little bummed out about myself lately and want to do better. be a better person. be a healthier person - physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. be a better wife. be more determined. be more successful. be happier.

i find encouragement from these 5 things:

*Forget not to be patient with yourself.
*Forget not the difference between a good sacrifice and a foolish sacrifice.
*Forget not to be happy now.
*Forget not the “why” of the gospel.
*Forget not that the Lord loves you.

(courtesy of President Uchtdorf)

here's to a new day :)


  1. wasn't that the best talk ever? Mara, you are wonderful. Don't be too hard on yourself - every day is a new day. I'm in the same boat with you, I want to be better. If you ask me...you're pretty fantastic!

  2. Is it terrible that my first thought was, "Dang! I wish I could go to bed at 7:30"?

    I am an old woman.

    Hang in there, Myrtle. We all got bummed out eveyr now and then, but as long as we have our eyes on what's important, we'll get there someday. Love you friend :)

  3. oh friend, i am right there with you. we went running last night, and i was out by like 9 (we went running at 8:30). its frustrating for sure to feel exhausted when you are suppose to be feeling full of energy for working out, but it does get better the more you do it (which you could say for most things in life, i believe).

    and i have always struggled with regular scripture study. its just something i haven't been able to figure out how to make it work for me. but i think thats what this life is all about -- constantly trying and learning. every day is a new day! we are so lucky we get a fresh start every day.

    ok, i love you. so, thats enough rambling for now.

  4. Okay, give yourself a break because HELLO you went running in the morning! way to start the day out right :) I think we ALL struggle with regular scripture study. For me I am really good for a little bit and then I get bad again, then I have to kick myself again and try to get good... AGAIN. All the ups and downs to life can be so discouraging, but you, my friend are doing awesome.

    P.S. I loved that talk by Pres. Uchtdorf - he (HF) knew just what all of us women who beat ourselves up about not being perfect needed to hear.

  5. thank you girls for the sweet comments :) seriously, thank you.